The Dreaming Hart

Dawn at the filed of dreams

This is my dream manifested into reality.

I am wanting to embody my fullest expression, following my heart and creating magic each day. I want to build an amazing communal Shala that holds and shares incredible wisdom and ceremonies. I dream of gorgeous little mudbrick homes nestled amongst the gardens. I wish for my young to be surrounded by loving, kind, present and benevolent beings, knowing themselves in each moment. I wish to add horses to our family so we can wander a little further into the wild.

What brings me alive?

Deep presence with my young. Watching them be happy, angry and move through all the feelings in safety and harmony. Teaching. Sharing wisdom and seeing people light up with answers they have been searching for. Sharing the beauty of Zenthai feels like dancing with source creation.

I love painting, weaving, swimming and laying in the winter sun covered in ayurvedic oils. I love doodling by the fire, singing and drumming with sisters.

I could happily spend entire days walking goats in the sunshine, riding horses to waterfalls and singing with my babies.

I have many threads of wisdom woven into my basket — young people's guide and advocate, Zenthai Shiatsu therapist and teacher, native fibre weaving teacher, garden artist, community organiser, animal tender, deep listener, great cuddler and cubby house creator.

Women often come to me for nourishment and guidance around blood, cycles and women's mysteries. Young people come to me for play and presence. Men come seeking initiation and purpose.

I am here to share what I have learnt.

I would love to learn how to care for and ride our own horses, make incredible cheeses, knit beautifully and continue creating spaces that invite people to gather, craft and belong. Part of me simply wants to sit within beautiful structures, making things with my hands. Another part delights in the puzzle of building and bringing ideas into form. Flying acrobatics and silks still call my name too.

I am curious about life, about duality, and about how to remain benevolent whilst embracing the fullness of being a wild, primal woman.

At this moment, I am completing the communal kitchen and preparing the communal tipi to hold gatherings, workshops and teachings through all seasons. I feel called to continue sharing Zenthai, supporting others to remember the wisdom held within their own bodies.

What helps me thrive?

Knowing who is doing what. Knowing who is here and for how long. Shared responsibility. Spaces held with reverence. Kitchens tended like temples. Room for creativity and chaos, followed by loving restoration. Time to myself. Time with just my babies.

Community invites me into continual growth.

I am learning to lead alongside other leaders without shrinking or stepping aside. I am learning to speak before resentment builds. I am learning that quality time, working shoulder to shoulder, often softens the places that words cannot immediately reach.

Looking ahead, I dream of land we know we can remain upon — a place where the full vision of JAANYMILI can take root.

I see a sanctuary for our horses, daily rides into the wild, and a Shala alive with Zenthai Shiatsu teachings, laughter, ceremony and deep remembering.

I am growing.

I am building the foundations so that I may soften more fully into my feminine, into trust, into receiving.

This is the dreaming I am living into.

Sunrise overlooking JAANYMILI SANCTUARY, our home